i have read what u said on ur LJ. I am sorry, i don't know what to do or say anymore. i am all screwed up myself, so i can't decide the best way to solve this between us. I guess... we should distant ourselves; give each other some space until our hearts are ready to continue the next phrase. I am sorry for hurting you, i really am. I know that no amount of apology would make u feel better, but i still have to do it. This is the last time i would hurt you, i can't promise for sure, but i will do my best to uphold it. Until the day we have strengthen our resolves to face each other, it would be the day that we will smile truthfully to each other. You don't have to force a smile, because it is what i would last wish for. I just want you to be happy, and if leaving you alone to not hurt u further is what it takes, i will do so. I tried to make it up for you, to hurt you less.. but it only ended up hurting you more. I am so sorry...
I could not longer think right, and i ended up doing silly things to hurt you more. I am so sorry.... I really don't know what to do..... so, until the day you are ready to face me with whichever decision you have made, i shall not go into your life. Even if it means to be forgotten. You are a strong girl, someone who stands up no matter how much harsh things fall upon you, that's the girl i knew from you. So be strong. Perhaps it's very selfish of me, but this is the only thing i would want to ask from you. Please be strong and happy, because the smile you give, is the smile that gives others strength and warm. So please don't ever lose it.


As for another you, i thought that i have already lost my feelings for you... i never knew that seeing you once more would make my feelings come back so easily. I hate how weak i am. i spent so long trying to forget you, but mere seconds was all it took for me to have my feelings for you coming back.
was what i constantly tried to hypnotize myself with, but it seems like i am merely a heart-over-head person. I am such a fool for you. Such a useless one. Just seeing you once more would make my feelings come back, i am such a weakling. So soft-hearted. So weak. I told myself to keep my heart away from you, to not feel and to not be hurt. But just seeing you in person, breaks the chains i caged my feelings with. pathetic. I really am. sigh...

I don't want to fall for another someone anymore... because every time i fall for someone, i am hurt deeply everytime. I give up, this game of love.

Move on, sk. Just move on.